I felt very attachted to my prevT. I'm still am. It wasn't always like that. It was a healthy relationship first.
I don't idealise her. I don't think she's perfect. I do think she has a good life. I don't know much about her life. But enough to know it's a good one. Much better than mine.

We didn't talked mucht about my attachment. I felt she didn't felt comfortable talking about it. Talking about something that somehow involved her. Maybe that partly why my attachment never improved.

Current T can talk about it. Honestly and openly. She will have to, because I'm having a very hard time with my attachment to prevT. My relationship with current T is healty. She also seems to understand that people can get to attached to their T.

I don't think this attachment is a way of avoidance. Currently this attachment causes me the most pain. I don't know how I have to deal with this, how to get over this. Even 6 months without any contact didn't made it better, only worse.