(((Daisy)))

Just a quick, rather technical note on when Ts might intervene (I'm sure there are people far more knowledgeable than me on this board about it all but for what it's worth) in the ways you're thinking --

Both current T and former T have been very specific that unless a client reveals exact plans, they cannot and will not attempt to do anything different.

Current T is a lot more relationship / attachment focused and so, unlike former T (whose standard policy form that all clients had to sign was to say that they'd call 911 rather than her) she has been known to schedule extra sessions and / or talk on the phone -- even in those cases though, her main focus has been to determine if there's a clinical emergency and so, she's said that she gets really specific to figure out what actions have been taken or are intended to be taken.

I have not personally been through a crisis of this sort with either of them but this is what they've told me -- current T has told me in some detail about the different kinds of extreme / emergency crises interventions that she's made.

On the other hand, I have for example, described to her in excruciating detail my ideation fantasies -- she's listened (and sometimes okay, joked about it -- which yeah, ouch) but she's not ever gotten really perturbed about it.

She has at other times figured out that I'm not doing well -- or that I may not end up doing well down the road -- and so, offered to be more available than she is usually.

But, all of that stuff was based on things I explicitly told her.

So, would I say that she didn't give a damn earlier and then started to? I don't think so -- I think it's just that she made different clinical judgments based on the information I presented to her. I could of course question the clinical judgments (and her skill in making them -- which I always love to do!) but that's rather separate from deciding whether she cares two hoots about me or not.

It's really hard for a T then -- unless maybe you've worked with them for years and years -- to figure out what constitutes a crisis without the client giving some sort of quasi-clear indication (and that can differ from one T to another in terms of what constitutes a clear indication).

That's not to defend your T -- not at all -- but just to say that something you may be interpreting as a sign of 'not caring' may actually just be some version of a standard clinical practice that he adopts at play?

I don't know. Only you can tell if it's worth it to sort it out or not. I hope things get better for you.