I am so sorry you are dealing with this. It sounds very frustrating and terrible. My anxiety is horrible too and I relate to feeling "jumpy"

It amazes me how differently people respond to medications. My mom took 2mg of Ativan for years and stopped cold turkey a few months ago. I warned her she'd have withdrawal symptoms because I'd seen so many people on psych boards complain of them. She was off them for months without a single side effect. She's had extreme stress lately so is back on them temporarily and when she takes them you cannot tell at all. My husband takes a baby dose of .5mg occasionally and looks like people on TV who shoot heroin when he does. He drops his cigarette while passing out smoking, has an unsteady gait and wakes up the next day and is hung over all day. Cheap drunk is what we call him around here. I've been on 2mg daily for several weeks at a time and never any withdrawal other than a return to my normal anxiety.

I hope these symptoms clear up for you soon because that is just too stressful to be expected to deal with long term. Please stay safe and in contact with your doctors about what you are experiencing (((hugs)))