Certain women can make me a complete anxious wreck. These women are usually loud extroverts or women who carry themselves in a certain way(women who show pride). I guess it's because I find these women to be "strong".

I always thought that that feeling WAS attraction. I realized that I have an image in my head about who they are. And sooner or later I end up disappointed, confused and sad.

So I am trying to learn how to ignore this need for a strong partner. And all that I end up with is confusion.

There is this woman who I suspect has a crush on me (she is anxious around me). Our paths come across almost every weekend. But when I look at her, all I see is a frightened girl. And that kinda turns me off.

My friend mentioned that he has two women on his mind. And I thought she is one of them (he mentioned her previously). But then he revealed who and she isn't among the two. I felt disappointed and felt as if my interest for her diminished.

I actually showed a little bit of interest in her BEFORE she started being anxious around me. And I guess I did it because a couple of guys (including my friend) told me that they like her/find her cute/find her attractive etc. So basically an ego boost (I wasn't aware of this).

And again. I am left confused.