You know all those wonderful chemicals/hormones that surge through your brain during moments of sheer pleasure and make you feel euphoric, ecstatic, elated, motivated, etc?. I'm talking about the kind of chemicals that make thier presence felt when you've been dirt poor your entire life and suddenly you hit the lottery for 50 million dollars. Or the kind of jubillant rush you get when your long-lost pet has finally been found. Maybe you hav'nt been with another person for 10 years and all of a sudden you find yourself dating a beautiful woman/man. Or still yet, you get really engrossed in a project and become very focused and motivated with it.

Well, all of that has been missing for me for a l-o-n-g time. I want those feeling/chemicals back. I want to feel highly motivated and ambitious again. I want my serotonin/dopamine/norepinephrine back and I want to be able to take an interest again in the things I used to enjoy. I have lots of wonderful pets, projects I've been "meaning" to do, lots of realy cool software programs I want to learn, and quite a few things around the house that need to be done.

I run on auto-pilot most of the time as I mentioned once before. I have lost interest in everything. It's like I have become this robot/zombie who does things just because I know they need to be done but derive no pleasure from them, nor do I feel the least bit motivated as I'm doing them. On the RARE days when I do feel even the slightest motivation, I try to pack everything I can into my day - even freezing cookie dough, paying bills in advance, etc because I know that once I start going downhill again, I won't have the motivation to do anything.

I suffer from ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) in addition to OCD, Anxiety, etc and I was on Ritalin as a kid so I'm wondering if I should ask my doc for something like this again (perhaps Straterra?). Anyway, I just felt like sharing and getting some feedback from the rest of you on this. Does depression make you feel this way?.

- Regards