
Aug 14, 2017, 09:44 AM
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Member Since: Aug 2017
Location: NY
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Originally Posted by Artchic528
I should honestly start at the beginning, so here it goes. Warning, this post may be on the long side.
Around the fall of 2014, a group of online friends and I decided to break off of an existing forum for anime and manga discussion due to the super restrictive management therein, and create our own forum.
Well, the short version of the story at this point goes that I honestly had a complete and utter meltdown when one of the group whom I had feelings for, never quite returned them in kind. I took the rejection rather severely, had a psychological tailspin of a breakdown, and they severed all ties with me.
Well, all except one, a guy from Budapest, Hungary who had been witness to it all and sort of took a backseat and let things blow over, but still maintained contact with me from time to time. A few months went by and he invited me to join a group chat room via Chatango and again, the atmosphere lead me to have another psychological breakdown.
I've since made the decision that anime and manga based chatrooms and forums aren't healthy and I should avoid them due the near constant drama they exude. The guy from Hungary emailed me after I left to see if I was okay, I replied that I was okay and that I made the decision to abstain from those aforementioned places online, and nothing more was said between us for a long time. Several months I'd say.
Then a few days ago, low and behold, he emailed me again on the pretense that he was feeling nostalgic for the olden days. I couldn't for the life of me understand why anyone would feel nostalgic for the times when I felt my worst, but whatever. He and I shared our Skype information and now we are chatting on a daily basis on Skype.
The kicker is, shortly before my second psychological break, via the Chatango chatroom, he admitted that he felt aroused whenever I began to become "powerful". He and I began a private chat, and he admitted at the time that he was unsure of how he felt about me at the time. Fast forward to a couple days ago, and he now admits he's attracted to me and my "power".He says nobody else makes him feel the way I do.
How do I feel about him? Well, in the beginning I didn't really feel that way about him, but the more we talked, the more I began to feel something. He and I have a lot in common. We both like Sci Fi, gaming and anime and manga.
I honestly don't feel that there are any red flags because he's never done anything to arouse suspicion before. He's always been kind and decent toward me, always a good friend, always there to talk to. He's never asked anything of me that would be considered suspicious aka asked for my private information (SSN, bank account number, or for money). Not that I would willingly give these out to anyone anyways.
Now we haven't exactly declared ourselves "in a relationship" with one another yet, but we have decided to just have fun with one another and do our best to build a good solid foundation. No pressure or anything. I'm not looking for a quick and sudden "boyfriend/girlfriend" status now a days at any rate. I'd rather just enjoy what I have with whomever and not worry about labels until necessary.
I guess what I'm trying to get at here, is can a relationship this distant even be feasible? Can it work out or is it doomed from the start because we live so far apart and in different parts of the world?
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Having been online since before the visual web even existed (and been involved in two LDRs), I've seen this a lot with people. The basic answer is no. It's not a real relationship. It's a fantasy. And, frankly, speaking, maintaining a relationship w/ someone across the world is a near impossibility. Being in the presence of someone constantly is what forges a real bond. Doing the LDR thing, esp online, is a way to avoid a lot of uncomfortable things. Being present with someone and relating to them remotely are two completely different things. It's not healthy, especially at your age. You need to get out and explore people around you, IMO.
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