This is why I don't involve myself with religion at all. Because of all of the deceptions and the shady people that claim to be "religious", it is difficult for me to trust any religion at all. Because of my trust issues; both from my own personal past experiences and having knowledge about all of the lies, misconceptions, and abuse that happens behind the scenes at major churches and other religious organizations, I take a more minimalist approach and avoid associating with any of them at all.

After everything that I've been through and the fact that I had to learn the hard truth not too long after my mother passed away that I was lied to my whole life so she could control me, I stopped having faith in anything that cannot be proven scientifically; this means no religions, spirituality, or even other people in general since you can neither prove nor disprove the existence of God or somebody's motives alike.

Besides, if there really is a God, I don't see how he would fault me for being the way that I am due to what I've went through. I figure that as long as I do more good things in my life than bad, then everything will balance out in the end.

Thinking in such a minimalist manner does make life less confusing for me at least.