I feel like that about my T sometimes. Sometimes I feel that T is good, supportive and helpful and other times, it is like I don't know T at all and I feel let down and ready to quit.

Sometimes I think it is me misreading T, but other times I think it is T who gets it wrong.

Some things that T has done in the past, have been confusing and even hurtful, but looking back, maybe ultimately they were in my best interests.

I'm sorry you don't find your T helpful, have you spoken to him about how you feel?

I hope you get some relief from the nightmares soon.

Take care.