(((((((freewill))))))) im sorry you feel like this. one of my favorite sayings is, everything is okay in the end. if it's not okay, it's not the end. im sure you will see your light at the end of the tunnel. and like cthomas said - everyone in here was made to feel that way. thats how they get control over us. so the second you start having that feeling, the second they get control over you. never let them get that control. you are NOT worthless and you never will be!