Confused,
I hope you are feeling better. I hate when I withhold or stone wall when someone is trying to help me. For some reason as my kids are playing with their toys I am surfing the Web listening to music.

I looked up a song whose chorus was playing in my head last therapy session. I had talked myself into a hole. My T asked me a question and I just could not make myself answer it honestly. She sat quietly, refusing to make eye contact with me until I eventually answered the question enough to break her silence. I HATE silence and I realized that she knew what she was doing to me. I just felt like screaming the chorus to this song.

Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong
(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I live it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't trust to find the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away and find myself today

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

I really hope you are feeling better tonight!

FYI: I really have no idea what this song is really about. For me it reflect what therapy is like for me sometimes.