I am sorry your family is unsupportive. It sounds like your mother may have narcissistic personality disorder. I think of a narcissistic parent as one who only loves you when you adore them and do their bidding. They want you to be the person they hope your will be (their idea of the perfect child is one whose main purpose in life is to provide them fulfillment by being successful in the way they envision plus be a resource for them to meet their needs). Narcissitic parents have trouble accepting their children as they are and allowing them total free will to explore their own dreams. Your family probably loves you but perhaps the way they love can sometimes be a bit toxic. Being loved by a narcissistic can be a bit confusing. I hope you can sort it all out.