I feel the same way. I understand that people like to live a monotome, normal life. Life has no purpose and as far as I know, we only live once. I'm not into following society's rules. I think everyone should be able to do what they want meanwhile they don't harm anyone. I don't think I'll have a normal lofe, maybe I'll end up killing myself or in prison or who tf knows. But I'll do what makes me happy.