Also, I am considering takng the last bit of money i have and going back up north to get some inpatient residential help, that I cannot get here unless in a psych ward.
People see me in public and are so nice, and say i'm a strong woman, I'm scared. So very scared, and so very lonely. I fear people, getting close, and I need to cut off my mom and bro--the only people i have right now.
I think I've said enough.