first of all, welcome to pc! I can strongly relate to what you're feeling! and the fact that it bothers you so much is probably the best sign. what now? it's real simple, when Christ died for us he became sin, and took on all of the sin of the world. when we accept him as OUR savior we are washed in his attoning blood and we have but to remind satan of this fact and he must flee from us. Claim the blood over anything thats trying to bully you around or that you feel powerless about. one of my all time favorite verses is from Romans where Paul proclaims "yet in all these things we are MORE than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life,nor things present nor things to come,nor height nor depth,nor any other created thing, shall be able to seperate us from the love of God which is in christ Jesus our Lord" the victory is truly yours! claim it if you wish to be free.