Thank you, Jennifer.

I'm wondering if she (my friend) thinks I was coming onto her. I'm a very affectionate person and I express that openly, and I may have been excessive in her eyes.

Maybe she thinks I'm too clingy... Maybe I've made her uncomfortable. I just wish that she would tell me so that I could get some closure on the issue. I didn't sleep at all last night.

I guess I am too clingy... She's one of the few people I talk to on a regular basis and I've come to consider her my best friend, despite never actually meeting her. We only talk online. I've told her that and she seemed fine with it, but maybe she's just been feeling sorry for me... I don't want that. I don't want her to only talk to me because she pities me... I've asked her about that before and she's said that she talks to me because she enjoys it, but I don't know... I guess this paragraph right here demonstrates how insecure I am. I'm just trying to think of how I possibly could have upset her this much and my mind is going all over the place... I can't help it. I'm worried that I'm going to be abandoned because it's happened before. I end up smothering people and it makes them want to leave... I have no problem toning it down to a comfortable level for her though. I just wish she would talk to me instead of running away, because I care and I want to fix this.

I'll do whatever it takes.