I want to have better self-confidence and self-esteem. My self-esteem isn't that high. It's not ideal. There are certain problems that I go through because of my low confidence. I don't have good enough thick skin (ability to handle criticism), I feel inadequate sometimes, I get jealous easily, I compare myself to others (pretty unhealthy habit), I get sad at myself for not having certain things, and I tend to feel insecure. I could get into an argument and feel a slight urge to cry. Then, my day is ruined. Sometimes, I find faults in others just to feel better about myself. But I do this internally. I never say these things to people. I want to just stop.

I want to stop being insecure. I want to stop being shy. Since I have low confidence and self-esteem, I am very shy and socially awkward when it comes to social situations. I don't know how to act socially "okay". Sometimes, I'm scared of coming across as rude or disrespectful.

I really want to start loving myself. I want to stop being socially awkward. I have mild autism which could have something to do with my social awkwardness. I want to start being assertive. I really just want to start having better self-esteem.

I really need help with this.

I am a 20 year old male.