my threapist is considering me for OCD and bipolar 1 w psychotic features and also i deal with trauma. I think im obsessive about everything. A huge perfectionist. To the point that i dont even know what obsessive thinking really is. I also don't know what my compulsions are.

My therapist says my compulsions are ruminating and going to a million people asking a million questions and then thoroughly researching my obsessions.

This behavior got me a stalking charge. I never told anyone about how i felt when doing it they just put it down as being psychotic but the court system saw through it. Its a really intense anxiety that if i am confused or don't understand something i HAVE to figure it out. Or else it runs through my head a million times over until i answer it myself. It causes me stress and i lose focus on simple things.

I would like to discuss this with anyone. As long as we don't help me research. Therapist says researching is a trigger.