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Originally Posted by Goals2017
I really don't have much advice, but I feel for you. How old are you? Have you tried any spiritual avenues? Do you take any medications? I have BP and also trying to find some relief from the pain. I hope you find a reason to keep fighting (hugs).
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I'm 35.
Spiritual avenues would be the domain of one of my demons. Only bad things come out of indulging in that sort of thing.
No meds. I've never gotten any help from doctors. Not for lack of trying, mind. They just don't want any part of me.
They didn't help when this all started at 15 and life was one suicide attempt after another. They just prescribed me some drugs, then stopped the prescription after I tried to OD on them.
They scoffed at me in my 20s when my mind snapped from drugs and poor living.
They made a feeble attempt to help during the year of the chavs by sending a worker to check on me once every few weeks, but that stopped after just a couple of visits. I also briefly saw a therapist for cognitive therapy around then, but she left for maternity leave after three sessions and no one replaced her. I was also directed to attend a local help group, but the guy running it actually pulled me aside and told me that I wasn't welcome and to leave. I have no idea why - I didn't do anything wrong or out of place while I was there.
I tried again just before looking into private help, but that time they just sent me from one center to the next, always telling me that they were the wrong place until they ran out of places to send me.
And then there's the private practice which I've mentioned above. A greedy, dehumanising, manipulative, tyrant, sociopath.