Ya know... It's like a switch flipped when I decided I couldn't keep living the way I was and accepting what I was accepting.

In the process of that, it feels like I have gradually become more isolated and drawn into myself.

When the light came on and I realized how I was being abused in my childhood, and how I have lived learned Helplessness out to the fullest, I started burning bridges. Some bridges I completely took out and others are very questionable right now.

I've thought about this and I'd like to think of it as a caterpillar in a cocoon, healing and growing into something much stronger. I like that idea. It's just hard to be there and not feel even more broken because I feel like a defective outcast.

Before I started this I had church. I did the Bunko thing. I met with some friends who were learning about natural healing with EOs. I had my mom and brother.

Most importantly. My relationship with my husband. I don't know if it can ever be repaired and be ok. It's been said that I'm the reason for all the screwed up issues with our family. I can't even go there in my mind right now.

These people now are overwhelming to me and I'm in a place where I'm hypersensitive to triggers when I'm around them or in those places.

I also have realized that when I was with these people, it was a part of me that wasn't really "me", so there's that.

I don't know.

I was just wondering if this is like a normal part of the process.

ETA: typos