Dr got TMS approved. It means I will be IP 3 -4 weeks more but it is worth it if it helps. Have been very unwell with depression and irritability. Last hypomanic episode was a week ago and I miss the feeling of being well and happy. Still stability, even in depression, is better than swinging all over the place. Not sure when I start TMS. Apparently it takes a while to begin to take effect so it will be a waiting game. I just want this episode to be over. If I begin to feel better I will be allowed out on leave by myself so I can live some kind of normal life and just sleep in the hospital. Seeing T soon. Can't wait as he is so helpful.