So last night was the first time that I think I realized that my husband doesn't comfort me and that is what bothers me the most recently I guess. I've been having a lot of issues this year with feeling alone and feeling like my needs aren't being met. I don't have friends anymore due to change in location and not knowing people here. So last night there was a conflict between us and I finally decided to just tell him that I just wanted him to at least try to make me feel better and he didn't. I even kept trying to explain why I was hurt, all he could do was b**ch about me being upset and crying and saying that I'm crazy. Then it dawned on me that my husband has never tried to comfort me ever during a time when I'm depressed or upset. Usually if I'm upset he gets upset and then it starts a argument, in which I'm left feeling worthless and useless and a whole list of other feelings that's too long to list now. I try to explain to him at times why I'm feeling whatever way I'm feeling but he never seems to get it or understand. I also know that my husband isn't very deep emotionally. Sometimes I don't feel like I know him that well. He doesn't really let anyone in on how he feels emotional. He comes off sometimes as not caring, his cousin said that to him recently. I don't think my husband is capable of comforting me or helping me feel better when I need it. So I will never get from him what I need and I don't know how to feel about that or how to deal with it. I have so many other issues going on with myself and it's so hard to deal with one at a time when they all overlap.
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Dx: Bipolar 2, Anxiety disorder, Adjustment disorder with mixed anxious mood.
Medicine: 40mg Latuda, 35mg HydroXYZ
Past Meds: 20mg Latuda, 150mg Seroquel XR, 50mg Topiramate (Trokendi XR), 25mg Vraylar, 25mg buspirone
 You live and you learn
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