There isn't much anyone can do.....just stay my friend and forgive my outbursts until I can figure myself out and get better. I'm so sorry I'm so angry.....I'm so angry at my doctors right now. I know they think they are doing the right thing but I don't think they are. I took a hot bath and have been crying so hard all day I've tired myself out which is good. I took 2 blood pressure pills and 2 atarax to help with my anxiety and itching .....hopefully it will allow me to sleep soon. Crying helped get some of the frustration out. I talked myself out of drinking g which was for the best......now I just need to sleep. I'm sorry again.....I try so hard not to be like this but nothing I do seems to make a difference. I just want to get better.....