I keep telling T that getting better is painful. I have become more assertive so people around me are having to change. This is causing quite a bit of chaos. The other people didn't make a decision to change like I did. But since I've changed, they have no other choice. I'm also seeing things that I let go by that I hadn't realized which is painful. But I still am moving forward in spite of the consequences. I suppose feeling isolated is normal. Take care.