Reading this post of yours and others it seems like you are really throwing all of your energy and time into communicating with this pharmacist. It's almost as though you simply can't bear to think of anything else. Putting all of your energy into this seems to serve a really important purpose for you.
From the outside it looks irrational. From everything you've written here in the last few days the energy and intensity you are putting into communicating with this person doesn't feel like it fits with the reality of the situation. it must serve some very important purpose and help you in some necessary way. i wonder how.