Along with the OP, I would classify my stability as comfortably numb. I've been mostly stable for two years now, aside from a med trial gone wrong. It's a state where I don't really get depressed much (once in a while, but an increase in Lamictal and some amino acids have helped that) and I definitely don't get elated. I don't really enjoy much, but I'm able to work to an acceptable level and things are very stable with my home and family life. There are times when I don't feel that I'm BP, but I usually quash that feeling with memories of my tough times. I'd like to reduce some of my meds to see if I could maintain the stability with fewer side effects, but it'll probably be a little while before my psychiatrist is ready to go along with that idea. I don't know. There are also times when I feel as if the world of psychiatry and meds is trying to keep me from having fun. Content? Most of the time. Happy? Not really.