Still nothing from T. It's been a week since I first emailed her. I wrote her another email last night. It was a novel.

I'm so torn. Part of me is really worried, part of me is angry, but mostly I'm hurt. I'm crying a lot now. I feel so weak and pathetic. I thought I was stronger than this. I wanted so much to do well while she was on vacation. If only she'd email me. But that's not going to happen. I won't hear anything from her for at least another week.