You are doing so very much, taking so many responsible steps in working with your depression and the physical problems that caused it. I know the last thing on your mind is the idea that you deserve some respect and kudos, but you really, REALLY do. I honestly don't know what I'd be like if I were in this situation.

Please, if it helps, continue writing your thoughts to us. There are some very sympathetic people here. Express yourself to your heart's content. Write every week, day, or hour. We'll listen.