Welcome to PC and Hello TymeKyller
You are doing the best you can by reaching out. Know that we are reaching back and here for you. We will listen and try our hardest to understand and support you.
Do you have someone IRL that you can depend on for some support? Are you in or looking for therapy to help you with your needs?
Knowing that you need to reach out and not feel alone in this is a good thing. Hold onto that knot at the end of the rope...all is not hopeless. There are always ways of working through the darkest of times.
Sending you strength and supportive thoughts TK.

sabby