That's really interesting. I guess I don't disassociate feelings like you do.... However in my scenario, I had to disassociate the original or first trauma ....then when the second trauma hit me I had ptsd.... So, not knowing how you are experiencing your life, and since I am not a therapist... I really empathize with what you are going through only in the sense that starting over with another therapist is hard work but not impossible....each therapist helps another if its possible...by getting records or whatever they need to do....it never hurts to ask them to get the information from the old therapist...