So I did it.

I actually did it and i feel relieved yet scared shytless.

I emailed my employers, asked them to terminate me.

No feedback yet.

It was just too overwhelming and suffocating. Especially now with them requesting an official report from a therapist on my capacity to work... Like HTF can I guarantee stability and level of functionality over X amount of time????

I'm not a fortune teller!!!
And with all this cancer/dementia stress, things are really unpredictable. Like I said earlier, Mad Hatter's tea party level unpredictable.
Caring for someone who's mostly off their rocker and doesn't want to be cared for is NOT easy, and it messes with me sometimes.

If I knew the exact date of my mother's death, well then maybe, just maybe I could provide them with a "Capacity to work" report, but since I don't know when the old bat is going to kick the bucket, my sanity is partially at her mercy.

(NB. I love my mommy, despite what I must sound like)

What was supposed to be a stress free 3 day a week gig turned into an entirely new job description with a million responsibilities so it has not been what I signed up for, at all.

For some perspective, I agreed to 3 days stress free (they knew my dx since my interview) filing, data capturing & receptionist, but I evolved into a full blown bookkeeper, IT maintenance, assistant household manager....

Contacted an agency who helps place people with MI, got their details from my former T.

Who knows, maybe they can help.

In the meanwhile I need to figure out how to hold onto my sanity and not be completely broke at the same time.

Hopefully Mr and Mrs Employer bites and goes along with my request. They've been super considerate thus far, hopefully their goodwill hasn't completely run out yet.