chalm, I know the feeling. There's always drinking at Christmas, New Years, and well, pretty much every holiday. And every holiday I want to join the fun instead of sitting with a can of Pepsi or a cup of coffee. There's that feeling of desire but there's also that sadness that comes with the denial of drinking. I understand completely and it's just something we have to deal with. But I know you're strong so congrats for getting through it.

And as others have pointed out, you're not alone in the struggle.

Cyran0