When I lost it pretty close to completely (but not as bad as some do) I thought I'd be stuck in that hell forever. I thought there was no way to ever come back from what I was experiencing. I did come out of it, changed but out. It's important to try to remember it's always possible to recover, no matter how bad things seem or feel at the time. It's a terrifying place to be and my heart goes out to anyone whose ever experienced it.