This is probably more of a rhetorical rant then anything else but I am just beyond frustrated, edging into hopeless. I live in south Florida and there are absolutely no resources that I qualify for in my current situation. Drug attiction is such a big issue here that it is the only thing they address. I am not a drug addict and I am not in a physically abusive relationship so no one can help me. This is the second time in 6 months I have found myself on the verge of homelessness, last time I called around to every organization I am hours drive. The one person who would stay on the phone with me long enough to hear half my situation said my best bet was couch surfing.

I am 29, no children, divorced, and suffer from both chronic pain and schizoaffective disorder. I allowed myself the luxury of getting a small dog and two cats over the past 5 or so years. Previously I held a career in hospitality managment, and have a bachelor's degree in the topic, I am neither physically or mentally able to work in that field anymore. Lower responsibility jobs, such as a server I am not physically able to do and I have a history of having lost serving jobs due to medication side effects. Last year I went back to school in hopes of being able to stabilize my life. I have to work full time to barely cover my expenses, I often have to cancel doctor appointments and ask my family for money for my medical expenses.

A few months ago the air conditioning went out at my apartment. Anyone is lives in south Florida know that no a/c during the summer is not an 'inconvenience' it is unbearable. Aside from the temperature my apartment filled with mold. I desperately tried to find alternative living arraignments but without $3,000 to put down on a new apartment I was out of luck. All of the housing for women in crisis only took people coming out of abusive situations or recovering from drug addiction. I was told I was safer on the streets than staying the night in a county shelter.

I don't expect the world to cover all my expenses, I am trying my best to be independent, but there is literally zero help for me. I have called crisis hotlines in the past because I couldn't afford therapy and they ended up with police officers at my door escorting me to the hospital which I also could not afford. I have health insurance and my mother helps me pay for it, it is good coverage. My medications still cost almost $200 a month to fill with good coverage. I feel like everyday I sink deeper into a hole of inability to care for myself with no means of escape. I have looked into moving to different cities and states with more resources but it is overwhelming.

I just do not know what to do. I have extended myself beyond a healthy level, the only luxury items I purchase are pet food and honestly my pets are the only thing that keeps the remains of my sanity intact. I have to go days without eating, my rent is always late, between working and going to school I pull 7 days every week, never a day off to recover. I went to my university's on campus counseling hoping to find a resource there and was told they are not equipped to handle someone with a condition like mine.

I cannot even move back in with my mother because she is remarried and he feels strongly that adult children should be self sufficient.