((((LMo))))))

I'm not worried about being pressured to stop. It's something I wish I didn't do in the first place, but sometimes it seems like my only option for stopping what's going on in my head. With my history, I also am uncomfortable with sexual feelings--I haven't really ever resolved that my body responded as bodies will while things that shouldn't have been going on, were. So "arousal" is kind of a creepy place for me to find myself.

So no, I guess I don't *have* to lie -- I'm just deeply ashamed that I do this and I'd rather not have to tell a physician about it. For that matter, I haven't even told my therapist yet.