Hope, I hope you realize sweetheart only trying to help. You stated that you do ask to speak to him a lot and asked if he really would have figured out how you feel. I'm sure he's come to some conclusions exactly what he's thinking no one can say except him but you have to realize that he has a job to do a very important job. If he is distracted it makes a mistake somebody could die so he can't allow himself to be distracted. He cares because that is his job and people's lives depend on it.

As for what he is thinking who knows I don't know what type of questions you ask him or what you say. He can either be thinking this girl has a crush on me or he could be thinking why does she have so many questions? We are talking about psychiatric meds after all, maybe he feels that the questions are due to a mental incapacity.

Either way I don't think it matters at this point you've sent him the letter through Facebook he can respond to you through Facebook if he wants. I think the best advice would be just to switch pharmacies so you don't have to be reminded of him anymore. Try to move on. At this point it does seem to be on the verge of harassment I remember this is his job, I'm sure he doesn't hate you but he does have a job to do as well.

I know this is caused you much stress and as you stated you don't want to get out of bed. The distraction has also caused you to fail your exam. It doesn't sound like this is a healthy relationship for you. I would suggest working with your therapist and finding a way to meet people that you have common interests with people from school or a club. Developing friends with common interests may help build your self-esteem and allow you to eventually approach a love interest in a healthy manner.