I guess it's my younger parts of mind that are in push pull to complete shutdown and even disliking her all together. I find it hard to be in my adult mind when in her office so parts cause a shutdown. I feel it's getting worse and will cause the end to come soon. While adult mind doesn't want to end . ... Really the rest of us are in conflict. T even ended 30 min early, just said I am done talking and since you won't see you next week. Parts felt relief while others were in shock she left us there .. she left the room and went to her other office room. I am numb and sometimes just feel constant pain and hurt other times I could careless to talk to her. Certainly doesn't feel push and pull anymore. Just extremely distant.