Well I really did not think I was so attached to WHT, (wild haired t) those of you that don't know I started seeing her this year after a really awful abusive time with ex t.
In this year so far WHT, didn't show up for three sessions and missed two phone sessions. I haven't seen her in three weeks since the last time she didn't show up. I decided not to go back to her because it hurts too much to be humiliated like that and to feel like I don't matter over and over.
Well yesterday WHT rang, I didn't answer so she rang and left two more messages. She rang again today leaving three messages so I had to eventually answer. It was really awkward with a lot of silence, I told her I wasn't coming back and she was really upset and when I heard her get upset I burst out crying. My whole body ached and I don't know why. I didn't think I was that attached to her and it really scared me. She asked what was going on for me and could we talk about it and I said no that I couldn't right now and we left it at that. I don't know why but I feel so devastated by this loss. It's even worse that the loss of ex t and it really hurts. I just wanted to tell someone because I am feeling very vulnerable right now.