She emailed me! I feel so much better now! I'm still mad and hurt, but at least she's still there and is okay.

I've done a lot of things to try to cope with this: baths, desserts, shopping, etc. I have also tried to maintain my daily activities: crocheting, chores, cooking, hygiene, tv, etc.

It's hard though. Pretty much all my "bad" coping skills have been taken away: SI and over eating. And soon another will be gone: smoking. So when I'm without my T too, I struggle.

But I think everything is going to be okay now. We have some trust to rebuild, but we should be okay.