I just wish he would allow out of session contact. It would stabilize me and then I can go back to my "normal" state. But he doesn't allow that, and I respect that that's not what he is able or willing to offer.

But going through this process I am realizing more and more that I need someone who is able to offer me out of session contact for moments when I feel dysregulated.

That's what I am going to have ask for upfront if I interview a new T if that's something they offer.