It's not really my fault that he says our family is f'd up.

I say that and I own it.

It's been a hard thing to look at where I've been and then press forward for new things.

It's not a happy thing for the ones I've been catering to and convincing.

Just saying.

Tomorrow is Friday. The past two Friday's have been horrible days.

I have a plan if it goes that way this weekend.

That makes me feel good but also sad.

I don't want live my life like this.

I guess I just see what happens. My boys are with me and we are in this together.

I would be thankful for any prayers for how it needs to be.

How it needs to be for everyone involved.

That probably makes no sense but it is what it is.

Thank you.