To me, a lot of the OP's post "seem" like she knows what's appropriate and what's not. She has the desire to be appropriate, but then follows her impulses instead. Then she comes back saying something negative about herself. Then the pattern repeats. She moves on to the next relationship to obsess about and posts for advice/support. And so far it's only been about men in an authority role.

I don't think the OP really wants advice though. It's never taken, even advice about coping skills. There's always an excuse. Or even a lot of people suggested that the OP find a female T. Or go to the intensive care facility, or stay away from ex-Pdoc, etc, etc.

Hope, I agree with Chaos. What type of support are you looking for? We can't agree with things we don't agree with, so that usually comes off as advice or alternative suggestions. But we can always listen and empathize. Maybe it would be clear in the beginning of your posts to state how you'd like people to respond.