yeah, see i used to drink .. i still do a little bit but it just wasnt enough enough..

after rehab and detox i kinda dont need it per say so i dont really crave it... i can get stronger things that work longer and better..?

i just have financial woes so the struggle is real..
im at the point where i feel like trying to go to work but my symptoms are so wild that i dont think its a good idea

i try to explain things to the docs but they dont really hear me, it just feels like im trying to explain something too complicated and they just are looking past what im saying..

i haven't really been diagnosed with anything besides that bipolar(the anxiety and others) and then changed back to MDD and now some unspecified depression or something i dont really even know my diagnosis anymore...

i know i should be in some type of therapy, they tell me that too, but im hopeless, feel like i've given up, and dont really have any transportation right now anyway..