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Old Aug 18, 2017, 01:06 PM
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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0 View Post
Well, beside my emotions being muted to the point of apathy, my brain felt like melted cheese.

My vocabulary was diminished gradually, it became so bad, I was speaking at the level of a 10 year old.

So in essence I lost words.

I also forgot how to spell, and needed to make use of a spell check for the first time at age 26.

My memory was screwed.

I would go to the shop for three measly items, bread, milk, eggs, and only remember eggs by the time I got there. (Shop is across the road)

Talking was a pain because I would struggle to articulate and express myself, words I wanted to use I no longer had access to, and it just made me feel stupid.

I even permanently forgot some stuff.

Like movies I watched and holiday trips I've been on, people I've met and hung out with... All erased. No jogging of memory muscles makes any of it come back. Its gone, like it never happened, despite photographic evidence to the contrary

Add tremors so bad that I had no fine motor skills, and I was 100% miserable and unimpressed.

Pdoc wouldn't change my meds and he didn't believe me, apparently my experience is impossible, and that's when I cold turkeyed all my meds... Got back on a mood stabilizer 3 years later tho
Thanks for this Trippin2.0 - very helpful. This is what I don't want to happen hence my reservations about trying it at all. We all respond to meds differently but the mental numbing, crap concentration and memory loss are side effects I won't tolerate.
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