grey goose,

i know exactly what you're talking about. i was a complete walking/talking zombie for over 2 1/2 years. i hesitate to state why because i don't want to put across the wrong message about meds...a delicate and individual subject.

i just wanted to let you know...it can change. along with the strong "good" feelings coming back, though, the equally strong depressive/anxiety feelings came back for me as well. it's a delicate balance and hard to maintain. but i asked my family which they would prefer ( a already knew how i felt ) and they said they would much rather have me the way i am now...crying, screaming, laughing, playing...than the way i was before. that was all i needed.

i wish you well and hope you find the balance you need i your life. you explained that so well. you're very good with words.

kd