I need to find a job. I had 1 interview yesterday so far, fingers crossed. Everywhere I turn my head I end up shelling out more cash. It never ends, and we can't keep up. It's a vicious cycle of borrowing money cause we can't make it by until payday then paying back that money and all the other bills and then we're in same spot of not being able to make it to payday so we have to borrow again. It's a never ending cycle.

I feel like I have all of this pressure on me to find a job and start bringing in money. My boyfriend makes good money and I've been going to school for the last year. I'm done now and started to look for work but that process is not going by fast enough.

We have all of these plans to buy a van and to move out of my apartment but everything is on hold until I can find a job. I feel like everything is waiting on me. I feel like we keep slipping further down this financial ruin and can't get back up again. We are never going to make it ahead until I start bring in money.

I just got paid today and after paying a stupid amount for my daycare bill I am almost broke again. We don't get paid again until next Friday and it will definitely not last us until then so we're gonna have to borrow again and we will end up finding our selves in the same spot next Friday.

It seriously never ends and I literally feel like I am drowning here.