I know that feeling Jinny, i was brought up in a fairly Catholic family and went to church every sunday as i grew up but as i got older i started to question my religion. I had no idea at the beginning that i would ever change my religion, that was not the point of my search. I started to feel confused after awhile too, i'd have periods where i'd enjoy researching religion and others where i felt so confused i just wished that i could forget all about it. I am blessed that God did not allow that to happen. But i know how difficult that place can be. At times i could not even pray because i felt like such a hypocrite!

I think it is brilliant that God is in your thoughts and that you want to learn more about Him, There are so many people that are unable to do this. I agree with Sky entirely, it will take time this journey you are on. In the last year the advice i have been given by muslims and christians alike is to simply pray. Trust God to guide you.

My little sister went to thailand for a few weeks and she really enjoyed learning about buddhism there, she even came back and took a course to learn more about it. It is a very interesting religion.

If you want to talk about things anytime (it doesn't have to be specifically about Islam) then pm me. I know how hard it is to be in the place you are in. I still have times when i feel confused, that is when faith comes into play i guess....

I agree each journey is different and completely personal. Do not worry about what other people think if you can. I'm learning that one of my problems is that i always tried to make everyone else happy forgetting that making God happy would make me happy and therefore start a positive cycle of happiness. (does that make sense?? )