That's the thing. I can't think of 3 reasons for others to have me in my life. I'm still lacking in the most basic human elements that others crave such as being able to connect with people emotionally and being charismatic. I am working on boosting my social skills but I will still have to deal with the hardest thing off all for me; connecting with people.

I guess what I'm wanting to accomplish is finding a way to be more comfortable and confident around women or people in general and being able to ask them for their numbers or getting a coffee or whatever without feeling so overwhelmingly hurt when I'm turned down. I want to figure out how to boost my confidence and social skills to be able to do this without dealing with a therapist and facing many of my feelings that I want nothing to do with when facing them hurts so much.

I can't even keep making threads like the one here talking about these types of things at this point because some of the responses here has caused me to feel like crap all day because being told some of the things here brings up some of the feelings that I simply don't want to deal with. I am not good with feelings and I find all of these emotions overwhelming and confusing to deal with. Not to mention, between school, work, and my upcoming business, I don't have the time to deal with something that takes such an significant amount of time and energy to deal with.

So if some of you think that I don't care about what you have to say; that isn't the case. I know some of you are right but I simply am not ready to face this part of me yet.