My AP has wiped out all of my delusional thinking. Completely. A lot of it was stuff that I believed even if it wasn't actively bothering me, but now it's all gone, and it feels weird. It feels like part of me got washed away. I feel like I used to really be connected to the beauty of the world, and now that's gone, like everything seemed magical before and now it's not.

I hope I'm making sense.

I'm working on a novel idea right now, and it's just not the same as it used to be, which is unfortunate. It's making me want to stop taking my AP, just until after it's written. I can't do that though because my husband told me he'd leave me if I stopped taking my meds, so I'm med trapped.

Does anyone else sorta feel this way?