Hi, for as long as I can remember I've been having these periods of what I call intrusive thoughts, except I'm 100% certain that that is not what it is in even the slightest. I'm not sure how to explain this though, so I'm just going to do my best and hope I don't sound completely crazy. This is normally how it goes: I'm listening to music, a song comes on, my entire body freezes and I almost go into a state of shock physically, I sweat, shake, and my eyes get super wide. But mentally it's entirely different, thoughts just run through my mind at a super speed pace anywhere from 1-5 minutes, I'd tell you what they are, but I can't ever remember what they are. I remember 3 things: it's both genders, a different "story" of thoughts every time, and the only word I EVER remember is "tremelo"? Is that even a thing? I hardly hear anything from the "outside world", and when I do, it just sounds like the crazy things going through my head. It's not only music; it's basically any sound that triggers it for example, the other day I was at work and my boss said something and it happened. She was talking to a coworker at the entire time and I didn't hear any of what she had to ACTUALLY say, in my head it was a bunch of nonsense that I don't remember. For music, I always turn the music off; keeping it on keeps the thoughts running longer.

I'm sorry if this sounds completely crazy to you who is reading this, and I don't blame you. I don't have a fantastic way to explain it. But at this point, it's become such a burden to my life that I need to know if there is a way to get rid of it. I don't know if gender and age are of any importance but I'm a 15 year old female. I've constructed an incredibly small list of the songs I remember triggering it which are below (that's probably not helpful in any way but just in case I suppose)
- "What we've got" Manatee Commune
- "Broccoli" D.R.A.M (can't listen to this one without it happening every single time)
- "The universe we dreamt" Matt DiMona
- "Nights with you" MØ
- "No stress" Louis B
Thanks.