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Old Dec 29, 2004, 03:05 PM
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I'm having a "sex-is-sinful" scruptulosity-type crisis in my life right now that is driving me mad. This has been going on for amost 5 months. I have a healthy, STD-free (and knock-out beautiful) girlfriend and she makes me so hot it's unreal but oh no, I can't do THAT because it's "immoral", "sinful" and "evil" and I will be "punished". I mean (gasp!) the thought that people are actually having sex out there and I'd like to be one of them is just an "abomination"!. I almost feel like I'm being teased and repressed all all at the same time. I'm given the "urge" to have sex but I can't use it. I also don't want to get married for some very personal (non-selfish) reasons that I won't get into here so I'm just kind of stuck in a rut. I was raised in a very strict, religious setting so sex is like the most evil thing a person can possibly do (ie; you must be married first, missionary-position only, done in the dark so you can't see the "naughty bits", a few quick "thrusts" and try not to enjoy it too much, etc). Yes, I'm being VERY blunt, sarcastic and a bit fasicious but I'm also being HONEST. My life really sucks lately because of this. If this is'nt really how "things are" then someone please set me straight but that's just how I've felt. Maybe it's my OCD acting up or perhaps I'm just way too inhibited/prudish/conservative and had a really screwed up upbringing. Maybe I'm the only person on this earth who has these feelings/problems??.

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